Well Hey!

On one very snowy February morning in a relatively small but beautiful town called Weymouth in England UK, my journey began out in the big wide world. When I look back now on that day (not that I can actually remember it), neither my parents or I could have possibly even dreamt the experiences we would have with each other particularly as I was the first born. That is just three of us affected in millions and billions of different ways in trillions and zillions of moments in the measly thirty-nine years since this original moment occurred. How mind-blowing is that? I have since interacted with tens of thousands of other humans, some being meaningful and led to long term relationships in various areas of my life and others being fleeting moments that I may have deemed insignificant and have no recollection of. Every moment is perceived differently by each individual experiencing it. I may have smiled at a stranger and said hello which is natural for me to do without thought or even really paying attention to the person receiving the greeting, that person however, may have been feeling low and lonely and searching for a reason keep going and that smile and hello would have been very significant and memorable. Life is such a series of incomprehensible little miracles, no two moments are the same and each one determined by the energy you give it followed by action you take. These create consequences, opportunities or punishments mainly. This is largely determined by your experiences of life so far as you will discover in further detail within the book. It takes a huge amount of everything to change that cycle.

          My experiences of life as a child and particularly young adult were on the whole very negative. I was bullied at school and at home throughout my schooling, domestic abuse was present throughout the childhood I have memories of, poor mental health of my mother and subsequently my own, My father left when I was ten years old, mother and step-father were alcoholics and that just briefly describes my school years. I will go deeper into my past in the book I am writing but following that came rape, domestic abuse in my own relationships, poverty, struggles with motherhood mental health diagnosis, child with high dependency special needs, substance abuse, need I go on?    

          However, throughout all this i spent my life wanting better for myself and those around me, I started with Christianity as that was the faith I was born into. I was christened and later on in my teens I chose to become a confirmed member of the church. This didn't make much sense though and at sixteen I was introduced to spirituality by wonderful gentle woman who took me in and through her personal journey and successes in creating a change in the cycle she was born into inspired me to do the same. This woman, although she is far to humble to agree, created the support, belief and knowledge I needed throughout my life to create that change for myself and help others to create it too. The book I am currently working on and potentially others, will all explore my ups and downs on my journey and the teeny amount I have learnt so far in my quest to help myself and others achieve happiness and purpose. We are not all blessed with the support, belief and knowledge to succeed but we can certainly obtain it if we know where to look. That is my Journey so far......